Still Talk To You

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I’m crunchin’ gravel, walkin’ past the stars and stripes
Row after row of heroes who gave up their lives
I find your name and I brush away the Georgia dust
Searchin’ for the strength that I can’t find in us
I’m late again, baby, yeah, I know the drill
But keepin’ up this pace is startin’ to feel uphill
I catch myself reachin’ for my pocket, dialin’ your cell
Then I remember, you’re in Heaven, and I’m livin’ in Hell

Our boy’s got your temper and he’s got your stare
He hides the tears, but I know they’re there
And our little girl, she’s livin’ in your old ball cap
Says Daddy’s lookin’ down, and I just leave it at that
I tell ‘em you’re a giant, tell ‘em you were brave
But it’s hard to see a giant when he’s resting in a grave
I’m playin’ both parts, and I’m failin’ ‘em both
I’m a Gold Star Wife struggling to do it on my own

So I still talk to you like you’re right across the room
Like you’re just runnin’ late, like I’m gonna see you soon
I tell you that I’m tired, tell you I’m holdin’ the line
But I’m breakin’ in the dark, just to let ‘em shine
They lost a father, I lost my home
I’m surounded by ghosts, but I’m dancin’ alone
Life is a mountain I’m tryin’ to climb through
But I don’t stop walkin’, ‘cause I still talk to you

See, the bills don’t care about a flag that’s folded tight
And the grief don’t sleep just ‘cause I’m fightin’ the fight
I’m screamin’ in the Chevy, I’m prayin’ in the rain
Tryin’ to find a way to make a purpose out of pain
You’re a hero in the papers, you’re a hero on the wall
But I just need the man who used to catch me when I fall
You loved us with a fire that the world couldn’t tame
Now I’m just a woman tryin’ to carry your name

I press my palm against the cold, white stone
And I whisper to the dirt, I hate doin’ this alone
But as God is my witness, I’ll raise ‘em up right
I’ll be the spark in their dark
I’ll be the flame in their night

Yeah, I still talk to you like you’re leanin’ on the door
Like I’m gonna hear your boots walkin’ ‘cross the floor
I tell you they’re growin’, I tell you I’m proud
Even when the silence gets way too loud
They lost a father, I lost my home
I’m surounded by ghosts, but I’m dancin’ alone
It’s a heavy-ass cross, but I’m gonna pull through
Long as I’m breathin’, I still talk to you

If you’re listenin’ up there, past the clouds and the blue
Just know we’re okay, we’re just missin’ you
Your name’s in our blood, in everythin’ we do
I’m still your wife. Yeah, I still talk to you