I Should Call Him

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Midnight glow from my phone on the bed
Read our last text, yeah, it’s still unread
I swore I was done, swore I was strong
But the quiet keeps provin’ me wrong
His name’s a spark I can’t turn off
Burns every time I start to doze

I know where this road goes, I’ve been before
But my thumb don’t care what my heart knows

I should call him, I shouldn’t, but I might
Just to hear if his voice still feels right
I don’t need forever, I don’t need closure
Just one hey girl pullin’ me closer
I’ll hate myself come mornin’ light
Yeah, I should call him
I shouldn’t, but I might

Friends say delete him I say I will
But I keep his number like a loaded pill
Every bad memory fades with time
Leaves only the parts that were kinda fine
I tell myself it’s just one ring
Like I ain’t losin’ everything

I’ve healed enough to know the cost
But tonight I miss what we lost

I should call him, I shouldn’t, but I might
Just to hear if he’s lonely tonight
I don’t need apologies or a fight
Just somethin’ real in the middle of the night
I’ll hate myself come mornin’ light
Yeah, I should call him
I shouldn’t, but I might

Maybe it’s love, maybe habit
Maybe I just miss bein’ somebody’s

I should call him, screen light bright
Heart sayin’ no, hand sayin’ alright
If this goes wrong, that’s on me tonight
Yeah, I should call him
I shouldn’t, but I might