Title: If I Heal Artist: T34L Release Year: 2025 Released as: Album (Pin-Up Girl) ISRC: QT6G72575298 ASCAP: 933822522
Everybody says I’ll be fine
That it just takes a little time
But they don’t hear your voice in my head
Or feel this house when I’m in bed
They say let go, start brand new
But letting go feels like losing you
I don’t wanna heal, don’t wanna be okay
‘Cause this hurt’s the only thing you left my way
If I heal, I lose you, and I ain’t ready to choose
A clean heart over the truth
I’ll hold this pain like a photograph
‘Cause the pain of losing you
Is the last of you I have
Your side of the bed’s still a mess
I wear your shirt when I’m at my worst
I know it’s wrong, I know I should
But missing you still feels like good
They call it strength, movin’ on
But strong don’t feel like you’re gone
I don’t wanna heal, don’t wanna be okay
‘Cause this hurt’s the only thing you left my way
If I heal, I lose you, and I ain’t ready to choose
A clean heart over the truth
I’ll hold this pain like a photograph
‘Cause the pain of losing you
Is the last of you I have
Maybe one day I’ll let it fade
But tonight I need you this way
If hurt’s the only way you stay
I’ll keep it close, I’ll keep the pain
I don’t wanna heal, don’t wanna be okay
Let this heartbreak stay
If I heal, I lose you, and I ain’t lettin’ you fade
I’ll hold on however I can
Yeah the pain of losing you
Is the last of you I have
